I dont write on here much anymore. I mainly come on to see postings from long distance friends. I think Tumblr is for a certain setting that I’m not in much for the time being. I have no desire to give it up, I’m just waiting for the right setting in future months. It is indeed a loner thing. There’s something about doing something else all day, coming home, being alone, and letting your thoughts unravel on here. I now work 8 hours a day, mostly on a computer where I’m engaged and busy enough to not be on Tumblr. When I’m not on the computer I’m in long meetings with a large team, battling ideas back and forth. I live with 4 people of varying ages and different daily pursuits. I eat family dinners. Somewhere between all of the working, socializing, family time and trying to fit my errands into some time slot that is not 9am and 5pm, I don’t write on here much anymore.
Yet, I’m still the same person with this internal monologue, these complicated inter-laced facets that don’t all fit into my immediate outside world. I’m still the same person that needs to write—I just don’t know where it goes now. Sometimes I do panic that thoughts are getting wasted, lost somewhere too far for recall. Are any of these ideas worth putting on some solid medium? I don’t know, but something always tells me I should.
I like writing to see where and how I’ve grown, even if it’s not my growth that I’m talking about. I think I’m growing, I have changed in the past months, and that is something that I want documented somewhere. I’ve made decisions, had realizations, made up my mind, set some goals, endured some pain and had some fantastic times. I’d like somewhere to put it other than the thoughts in my head.
What I’m trying to say is, this blog is still very important to me—it’s just in some sort of brief hiatus. I’m on here at least every other day, for a brief time, seeing what friends are up to, trying to keep up with and share in their thoughts, happiness and sadness. I’ve seen things that merit a congratulations or a “you’re in my prayers, I’m sorry for your loss” but again, these thoughts keep staying in my head.
When my setting is right, I’ll get back to it all. Till then, keep blogging—I’m very much interested in reading.